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Aku mahu... teramat mahu pergi jauh... tempat yang teramat jauh, kalau nak sampai itu jenuh. Kalau dicari lelah bersepuh... jauhhhhhh sekali... tak tercapai naluri... padan muka, siapa pun tak dapat cari... separuh mimpi separuh realiti...







Tapi....























Kerja belambak, duit takdak.
Di sinilah duduk tercanggak.





Sedih.




"Hei kamu, bawa aku pergi dari sini... kerna dalam hati ini, ada secangkir benci yang aku musuhi.... jua ada setelaga cinta yang aku hampir lupa"




OK... tak payah mengerti.... hanya momok perempuan gila di malam hari.


....dan aku pun ketawa berdekah-dekah pada diri. ya, padan muka sendiri.





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Faraha Hamidi said…
saya pun selalu mengalami masalah ini.
September 21, 2010 at 11:51 AM
Anonymous said…
konflik dalaman yang mnguja, haha
September 22, 2010 at 12:06 AM
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