Tuesday, April 15, 2008

ADIL (Tiada kena mengena dengan PKR, insyaAllah)

Tidak Adil...kenapa...kenapa dan kenapa...kenapa manusia di dunia ni pelik-pelik belaka...kenapa pakat-pakat buru dunia cari nama rebut kuasa... lebih sedih..lebih tragis... buru dunia atas nama agama... kutuk hamun..maki cela segala manusia...alahai sukarnya pada kedewasaan ini mencari seseorang yang benar-benar adil..berdiri pada pasak yang teguh..menilai manusia dengan neraca utuh bukan emosi rapuh...yang di atas terus menindas..yang di bawah mananggung padah...dan manusia..rata-rata manusia melontar bicara... merata-rata... nista dan dusta..ada manusia, hatinya tidak pernah puas.. apa yang dilihat semua tak kena.. kerana apa? kerana mereka yang dilihat tidak sehala dengannya.. apa fikirnya dia sudah terlalu betul? apa fikirnya halanya hala segala hala? apa fikirnya sudah tidak ada hala lain ke jalanNya? ada yang di pentas nampak benar..tetapi belakang tabir bikin onar..ada yang nampak tabah tetapi hari-hari marah-marah....alahai manusia...yang punya sekelumit sedar terkadang terlalu liar...memihak kepada sesetengah pihak..yang mungkin tidak berhak menerima hak dan tidak melaksanakan hak...hampir..hampir..hampir semua mereka bersuara kerana nafs di dasar jiwa..bukan..bukan mencari redha...yang dibawah mengampu puja..yang diatas menyogok sentiasa...yang menentang memfitnah lantang... aduh..mana mereka yang adil.. melihat manusia sama..ahh..terimbau notasi Piranesi "manusia itu sama rata tarafnya sewaktu di jamban" setakat itu sahajakah? itu falsafah barat...hakikat sebenar-benar hakikat manusia sentiasa sama...kecuali disisi Dia...tapi mengapa...mengapa..mengapa dibeza-beza sesama kita...siapa pun dia..khilafnya tetap khilaf..mulianya tetap mulia...terkadang..sedih sekali..kerana dia manusia ini..yang salah mengabur mata..sekelumit jasa dipuja-puja... dan mungkin kerana dia manusia itu..sekelumit dosa dijaja merata segunung pahala pantas dilupa.. mana nak ku cari manusia yang adil.. mana nak ku cari manusia yang punya jiwa bersalut takwa....aduh..Tuhanku... mana nak ku cari mereka..

"O you who believe! Stand out firmly for justice, as witnesses to Allah, even though it be against yourself, or your parents, or your kin, be he rich or poor Allah is a better protector to both (than you). So follow not the lusts (of your hearts), lest you avoid justice; and if you distort your witnesses or refuse to give it, verily, Allah is Ever Well-Acquainted with what you do." 4:135


Most times I’m the most strong I’m the rock the spot you get support from
Mostly cope with hopes that’s been rolled on
And when you’re low you know that you can hold on me
In a heartbeat I can be there the fears and tears you cry I’m by your side so dry your eyes
And let me provide peace of mind in time I know you’ll be fine
And if it’s heartbreak I can take some off your plate replace the lies and hate with smiles of faith
You fall deep I could fall with you. The dark is a familiar place you’re lost I can help you escape
It was my fate (pain) so that I can relate
Now when I can’t even stand I can handle the weight
I’ll be your shoulder for as long as I can but where’s the shoulder for my shoulder when I can’t

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

Sometimes it’s really hard to be this invincible figure you figure me to be
Cause I can feel the pain and when I’m cut I bleed mostly inside but lord knows I cry
I don’t lie I just keep it bottled inside I meet your eyes with a smile
and you think I’m lion but I’m alive cause I can feel like you can feel with emotions
still though it don’t show it’s real.
Conceal when my heart cries fall apart in the dark at the spot where my thoughts lie
I thought I was as strong as they come, I thought I was numb
my thoughts send my heart over run as I wonder
Can I make it through and is the one coming soon that’s gonna hold me console me
Or was this something meant to be and a shoulder for a shoulder wasn’t meant for me

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

Monday, April 14, 2008


I should be doin tech at the moment..yet, neither Mandy or Al3sh (my groupmate) has shown up.. therefore..im giving some space to myself...to write a word or two of my thought, feelings, emotions and whatever seems to come across my mind at the moment...to the deepest of my heart.. i have to say that i really miss home, Malaysia... despite the chaos and misery mode of political agenda...i still miss my beloved country...neither Australia or anywhere on earth could replace the love that i have towards Malaysia...its a place where i grew up..knew nights and days.. a land where i put my very first step on...learn to walk and run...a piece of earth that witnessess my joy and pain....on its land where all my loves gathered and scattered...beneath its sky i treasured my childhood...a place where the heart is... the formation of malaysia and the story behind is so much to learn from....the sacrifices of my forefathers, the blessing of Allah upon those who strive hard...history teaches us so much about todays and tomorrows...there is always a moment in this life when we have to look back and reflect... appreciate and treasure...these thing, i learned in Malaysia..but the ungrateful me was too naive and care free that i take my own sensitivity and patriotism towards malaysia for granted...the name " MALAYSIA " to me was just merely a name of a piece of land where one could live in..but i guess, i have come to the sense of being a better Malaysian...Appreciate..yes..appreaciate the peace and beauty of my own country... all the deficiency is nothing to be ashamed of..but something to take as responsiblity as an agent of changes... "Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, ambil emas dari negeri orang bawa balik negeri sendiri.."thats what i will do, insyaAllah...Allah bless Malaysia insyaAllah....OK.. i have to continue with my werk..a lot more to come insyaAllah...

Thursday, April 3, 2008


You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.

Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.

Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.

You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.