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(tajuk macam dah mati)

First of all, I would like to wish Ramadhan Al-mubarak to all my brothers and sisters… kat sini puasa esok… may this ramadhan be the best ramadhan ever!


When I was young, growing up seems so exciting… looking up at university students… They seem so respectable…and I imagined being 20s is so cool, you can be pretty… you have freedom to fly to where bout that you want, you will know so many things… matured but young… haha… but now I’m in my 20s… I’m neither cool nor pretty… and I know so little about life… I still behave like a little girl… crying over nonsense… throwing tantrum every now and then… maturity is a big question… and of course, knowing that what makes a respectable person is not just his/her tertiary education… the thought just dwindled away.

But indeed, I’m very grateful with my life. Alhamdulillah… at least, I’m doing something positive and beneficial… I’m not patrolling the street late at night and hoping into strangers car for some money… I’m not spending my time staring at the sky and wondering what do I want to be tomorrow… at least, though it’s uncertain… I know where I’m heading to in this long and winding road… I might have achieved nothing but at least, I’m doing something…

We get older every day or better, I should say.. we get closer to death every second… however change in number is a great reminder… and whenever the number increases… it increases with worries… and that’s a plain reality… if you have no worries, you might as well living in a dream… there is always something to worry about… and to me, worrying helps me to regain my consciousness when I’m dreaming too much… haha…

OK… thanks for all the beautiful wishes… when my kaklong called and asked, ‘how’s your birthday?’… I didn’t really know what to say… should I say to her ‘well you see, I didn’t get to sleep all night long… I had studio in the morning… I had lunch at 3, the first meal of the day… and…I crrr..I… ‘ haha.. ok…that’s it… doesn’t sound so bad ey? But all in all it was still a beautiful day…

And dear Kak sarah, thanks for the post… tak pernah ada org buat post tajuk nama I… you slalu buat post untuk I, mesti I sangat bermakna dalam hidup you kan?

I feel like giving myself a treat, should I get myself a Polaroid?… haha… but I also think I should buy another ankle boots (hampeh engkau pakcik, tegur kasut org buruk dalam kelas, org ada kasut elok okay, tapi malas nak ganyah p kelas)… hahaa… but I need a new purse the most… awat laa banyak sangat kad… takleh nak tutup purse. .. yang kat fossil tu lawa! Hakhakhak… fikir dlu… hari minggulah baru shoping….


OK… again, selamat berpuasa semua!

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Faraha Hamidi said…
happy birthday and selamat berpuasa!=)
August 11, 2010 at 3:08 PM
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