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Maybe I am a bit too obsessed with getting my life mapped out and planned. I'm always busy keeping tracks and pulling out dates for almost every event No matter if it's certain to happen or just an expected coincidence I jot down with an almost macabre sense of confidence. 7 years ago when I started using a planner I was still a student It was filled with dates for classes, exams and dues for school assignment Today I am an architect with lots of meetings, site visit, pending submissions and appointments But writing a planner is becoming more like an obsession, I recorded almost every occurrence holiday, sales and bills, my favourite snacks expiry date and sometimes the weather condition I put down the day I expected my shoes to get worn out and probably need to buy a new ones And if I had missed something, it will be backdated at an instance I am obsessed with pre-arranging and scheduling everything that sometimes dealing with people can give...

I had a long week last week. From technical meeting on Monday to Site Meeting on Tuesday to 3 days am to pm interaction meeting to another urgent site inspection on Friday. I'm exhausted, flat on my ass at the end of the week that I could hardly enjoy a fabulous Friday night family dinner of ikan bakar at Teluk Tempoyak. kesian kan. haha. Anyway, no matter how tiring it feels sometimes, I do gain satisfaction with the thing I'm doing. Working in a consultant company has given me such a great opportunity to learn so much about the profession. I love being in charge of a project, flipping through tones of thick heavy drawings and reports no matter how they often caused me paper cuts, rushing to the site under scorching hot Malaysia sun that often makes me dizzy, I love coordinating people albeit sometimes feeling all lost and confused when speaking to the engineers and other consultants, contractors, councils etc. I love discussing technical issues, giving out ide...

"thank you for stopping by....." This was in Melbourne, I would have been there if I were still in Melbourne. They are awesome, I know. Perfect pair. Not in a romantic sense.  Urgh.. why oh why didn't you guys visit Australia in 2011. 

Reality unfolds not the way we were often told. All in all, Allah knows best.

I was baffled with the story of a 13 year old trying to rape a woman at a Shell Petrol Kiosk. And today another story of a 14 year old committed suicide.  At that age, I was trying to get used to a hostel life, making more friends, curing homesick, keeping good scores at school and saving up monthly pocket money for a little shopping with my sister at the end of the month.  Those things were like my greatest struggles. These kids, I wonder what kind of childhood did they have.  God, I don't even know if I should be mad or sad for either of the story. And as a woman, you can't literally trust anybody, not even a kid with an innocent face. God... Being a parent these days must be very challenging. I don't know if I would make a good mother.  . . . . . . . . .   In a parallel universe... As I came back from work, a seven year old neighbour who was playing near by told me that I looked pretty today. Awwww~ But then he also asked if ...

I had a hard time at the office today. The boss was mad at me.  However, I learned one valuable lesson. No matter how hard I try, or how much confidence I had, I need to stop myself from pushing too hard. I have my limit and still have heaps to learn. I should not rush into doing things or trying to do everything at the same time. Take things slow, not too slow that I would be left behind... but slow enough to avoid choking while chewing and digesting all the new experiences and information.  I made mistakes. I admit it. I believe admitting your mistakes is a step towards maturity. What's next? Be responsible? If you broke something- fix it, If you lost something - find it, If you took something - admit it, If you hurt someone - apologize, If you love someone - tell her. Ops! haha.. the final 'If' may or may not be a mistake.  What was my mistake? I overlook a structural discrepancies between engineer's and architect's construction drawings causing s...